Desire is complex. It holds the beauty of God and points us to him. It is also effected by the harm, abuse, shame, and sin of a broken and fallen world. To navigate desire, we need a wise and caring community to listen to our stories of beauty and brokenness. We also need the transforming love of God. Can you hold that your desire is good and meant to find its full satisfaction in God and his design? Can you also hold that brokenness, evil, and sin has both shaped you and made you who you are? Are you willing to engage with constant practice to discern good from evil (Hebrews 4:14, Genesis 3:6, 1 John 2:16, & Proverbs 13:12)?
Below are some links to other sources concerning this topic around beauty, brokenness, and desire:
McLean Bible Church, David Platt, Part 1 Beauty and Brokenness
https://mcleanbible.org/sermons/Beauty-and-Brokenness/7/
Dr. Dan Allender and the Allender Center