Ya know…a lot has changed lately. Not externally, but internally.

I look back over my blog and the last couple years since the beginning of 2015 and I see myself differently now. This is because I’ve begun to tell my story to those who are willing to listen without condemnation and accept me for who I am and where I am in my growth and development.

I’m in a process of healing now. Things have slowed down so that more energy and time can be placed on emotional, psychological, spiritual, and physical healing.

Our bodies store trauma, did you know that?

I could never slow down to process my own life trauma (and everyone has some). I’d go to an event or seminar that was very impactful in my personal growth. Afterward, I’d feel like I was “fixed” and that I could pursue my heart’s dreams unhindered. However, it wouldn’t last.

I have such a shallow view of life. But it’s been recently that I’ve found how to slow down and heal.

The best part of this phase of my life is that I’m discovering deeper, more complex, and intense emotions of God. My life is His story in which I come to understand myself by understanding and knowing Him. My level of relationship and intimacy has deepened as I have walked into the path He has called me to, though it is marred with great pain (no one likes to visit the past pains).

Yet, it’s in this place of suffering by processing past pains that I have grown the most in my intimacy with God. I have come to trust Him deeper, know Him richer, rejoice and cry with Him fuller. I am learning who He has created my to be that I might reflect His glory.

I ask you: do you know Him? Today, slow down and spend three hours with Him today.